Falling for you

I never believed that I'd love again.
I didn't think it was possible.
But you've proven me wrong.
You're everything I could ever ask for.
You make me smile,
when I want to cry.
You're my reason to live,
when all I want is to die.
I'm pretty sure it's ovbious,
that I'm crazy about you.
There's just something there,
that makes it so easy for me to like you.
Some might say you've stolen my heart,
but sweetie,
it was yours from the start.
Romeo and Juliet,
was the tragic love story.
And Juliet and Juliet didn't end so well either.
But maybe we met eachother for a reason,
that only destiny knows.
Hopefully we'll be able to find out one day.
I never believed that I'd ever love again.
But you've proven me wrong.
Cause baby,
I'm falling for you.

I'm writing lots of love poems lately.. mhmmm... wonder why that would be? :P

Escaping Reality

When the world crashes down around you,

and the surroundings lose all color.

When the harsh words cut right through

and your vision begins to grow duller.

When a knife seems so appealing,

and all you can do is scream.

When you start to lose all feeling,

and disappear into your dreams.

When no matter how hard you keep trying,

and feel you can't get yourself out of this pit.

When you can't control yourself from crying

and all alone you sit.

When you lie there hurt and tattered

and all your hope has gone.

When your heart has finally shattered,

and the darkness goes on and on.

I will be there to pick up the broken pieces

and mend them back together.

Because my love for you it never ceases

and we can escape reality forever.

My nightly dream

my head,
resting on your gentle chest,
our breaths form into one.
your strong arms-
holding me,
like i'm secure,
but its the air that surrounds me.
if only it were you-
but its just a pillow unfortunately.
i wonder if you know-
how many times,
i think of you,
practically each night,
before i go to sleep,
how much i want you,
and the longing of your lips,
brushing against mine.
how i just want to be in your arms,
and be yours forever.
i just want you to know,
how much i love you.

Ready to fall

Not just infatuation
Not just a crush
More like admiration
More like a rush
I fall in love again day after day
I'm in love and loving it
What more can i say?
When you kiss me it sends chills down my spine
I just love knowing that your all mine
I love the days that we spend and the moments we share
I love the silly things you say to show me that you care
I'm giving you my heart, I'm giving you my all
Because for the first time in my life I'm actually ready to fall.

A glimpse into the poetic life of Rach

You live,

you laugh,

you love,

you learn.

You scream,

you cry,

you crash,

you burn.

I've lived my life, mistakes and all.

I've laughed, my friends they make me smile.

I loved you.

I still love you.

I've learned hearts will break.

Tears will fall.

I scream out of frustration.

Out of anger, heartbreak, and confusion.

I cry, heartbreak forcing me

to shed tears I never thought I'd shed.

I crash.

the tears no longer slow flowing.

Pushing me down to

a point of no return,

a point of depression,

You burn.

Lower and lower.

The wick disappearing into a jar of locked away emotions.

Solidarity is your only remaining emotion

until you break

and everything goes black.

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Say goodbye to yesteryear.

A day no longer here.

The memories of yesterday

now fading to tomorrow

I must say goodbye to the memories.

I must say goodbye the times.

I must move forward.

I have to be strong.

I have to move forward on my own.

I have to learn to trust myself again.

I have to learn to move on,

becoming stronger and stronger each day.

I have to face you,

with no tears shed,

before I can move on.

I don't know when

but one day soon I will.

The tears will no longer be

forcing their way unto my face.

I will smile in spite of you.

I promise you, I will move on!

When the day is ended

and the blood no longer runs crimson

I will look you in the eye and say "NO!"

No to your constant flip flopping

No to your disrespect of me.

No to your constant depression.

Always dragging me down with you.

Never stopping to acknowledge that I,

just like she,

have feelings, emotions, and I matter beyond you.

I matter to others.

It seems I don't matter to you anymore.

i believe I never did.

I was only a space keeper,

a fling.

A no strings attached unemotional relationship.

Please answer me this...

Did I ever matter?

Was I ever anything more than a fling?

My heart says I was more

My gut says I wasn't.

Who to trust?

My heart or my conscience?

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Sorry that I love you, sorry that i care

Sorry that we've taken for granted the love that we share

Sorry for the heartache, sorry for the pain

Sorry for what you gave if I didn't give back the same

Sorry for the waiting, sorry to waste your time

Sorry if I'm not worth it, you don't have to be mine

Sorry for mistaking something that I thought was true

Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do

Sorry for my feelings if they're not enough

Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff

Sorry if you can't fit me into your life

Sorry if all I do is cause us to fight

Sorry if I'm cramping your style or getting in your way

Sorry if i don't say the things you want me to say

Sorry if I don't measure up to what you want me to be

Sorry if I can't be enough to make you just want me

Sorry for apologizing but I don’t know what to do

Sorry if my only words are goodbye to me and you.

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I live with constant fear.
I fear that i am plain.
I fear that i am ugly.
I fear that i am fat.
I live in constant pain.
The scales, the pills, the tinie tiny meals.
And the throwing up after each one.
The fake smile, the drugs, the people i face.
Who stare at me like I'm a monster.
They see my bones jutting out.
They see my cuts up and down my arms.
They see my ugly, ugly face.
What they don't see is that i'm dying inside.
I'm lonely.
I'm scared.
I hate myself.
I don't want those things.
I just want to have friends.
I just want to laugh.
I just want to live.
I Just Want To Be Pretty.
<3


This was written way back in middle school when I had a very big struggle with anorexia.

What is love like?

Does it hurt?

Is it really painful? 

Does it feel like your chest will burst? 

Can I touch Love? 

Is Love cold, or is it warm? 

What does Love look like? 

Is Love a person, or is it an object? 

Am I able to see Love? 

Can I taste it? 

Can I smell it? 

What does Love smell like? 

Is Love edible?

Is Love the thing that I will find someday?

Does Love make others happy, or is Love sad?

Do you think I will be able to Love someday?

Is Love THAT exciting?

Then tell me

What is it? 

Tell me.... 

What is Love like?

I don't want to

Just for Jon.. >_<

Could it be?

That this is exactly what I've needed.

You?

Maybe it was in front of me

the whole time

I was just too chicken

to take that chance

I didn't want to hurt him

I'm terrified of that

I don't want to hurt him

he's worth more to me than that

He's worth so much more.

The permanent smile glued on my face.

You put it there.

Your smile makes me smile.

I hope you see how much you mean to me.

It's hard to put into words.

It's only been a few days but

you mean a whole lot more to me than you know.

I love you.

Sweet or stupid..? Its a hard call...

So my boyfriend at the time, Jon and I broke up prolly about 3 wks before Valentines Day.. But I had already pre bought him a Valentines Day card.And part of me said not to write in it and just leave it alone but being the genius (read:moron) that I am I wrote in it anyways.

The card on the front says: "Happy hearts make happy people"

On the inside it says "Hope you know how much you mean to me"

And I then proceeded to write:

,
You're not even mine but I'm going to write in this silly card anyways and maybe one day you'll see it. You were mine for only a month, and I fell head over heels in love with you. No matter what happens please remember you'll always have a friend in me. And thank you for being as wonderfully amazing as you are.


i love you,
Rach

and then I also wrote "It's true that you mean alot to me. Always will be. You will always mean alot to me."

I've known him for 4 years now and we ended on friendly terms, we still talk everyday. Sweet to write the card anyways or stupid...?