I was inspired...

I was inspired by MTV's If you really knew me:

25 things you probably don't know about me:

1. When I was very young I had a 104 degree fever losing my enemal on my teeth.
2. I deal with depression every day of my life.
3. Two years ago on Sept 10th, I made a choice to stop cutting. I hope I never have to go back to that.
4. I am more independent than the world allows me right now.
5. My dad is not in my life, adn will not ever again be in my life.
6. I plan to go to college for Special Education.
7. My little brother is my greatest inspiration.
8. My aunt is my one true role model.
9. The love of my life will be joining the Marines next yr.
10. My best friend is getting married to her Air Force fiancee in 2 yrs after he gets back from England.
11. I'm leaning more and more away from Chrisitanity every day. I do not like how judgemental it is.
12. My goal in life is to visit New York.
13. Honestly I feel as if I don't matter to the world, why even try?
14. I'll never be good enough for my mother.
15. Music is my escape and now that I cannot currently find my ipod, I'm going crazy.
16. If I could get in my car and just drive right now i totally would.
17. I really want to just get on a bus one day and see where I end up.
18. I hate my name, Rachel! It will be changed to Rachelle the day i turn 18.
19. My first crush that I had in Elementary School had the most gorgoeous red hair... Now he smokes pot..
20. My paternal grandmother's facebook pic is her chugging Jack Daniels.
21. I love my grandpa more than life. The day he dies I will be in hysterics.
22. This summer alone I have lost 55lbs. So why don't i feel pretty yet?
23. I can play guitar and I do write some of my own songs.
24. I never wear makeup. I feel like a whore when I do.
25. I don't know that anyone would care if I died today.